If it is not possible. A cold shower will give you something else to think about. Read about cold showers. Many positive benefits. Turn that sucker on cold and you will break that ruminating loop.
M 53 W 54, M since 98 D15, D19 8/2013 discovered EA, W maintained contact with OM until 10/14 7/2/17 W said she wanted S, 7/25/17 moved out of MBR 12/17 W says moving out 5/18, W still in home.
