I don't have a child and my predominant reaction isn't anger.
ALL you are experiencing is normal when you are a target of these creatures. The cold manipulative disordered ones.
So your sitch is in the minority here of being abused by a psychopath. With all the attractive traits that go with it.
They map your desires to hook you as a supply resource. It's not real. They do that for themselves and it is unfair and awful to be a target. They become a new person for the next target.
So vent away.
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Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW