These thoughts are absolutely completely on cue. NORMAL.
At this stage in my sitch I wanted to die, and seriouslyrics thought about it. I went to bed whilst my world fell about my ears, I was on the verge on bankruptcy. Went to bed for 6 weeks, no sheet changes, in the smallest darkest room in my house. I missed work deadlines, no one got paid. Awful awful awful soul seering pain, my life was over.
Then it got worse, the G started suing me demanding money. I came to the seaside sat in a cafe and posted here. It was despair.
The trouble is we see our lives through the lens of our trauma. We think it will never change. This is it for life. DUH! Every bad thinking process, catastrophic thinking, black and white, over emotional thinking, confusing thoughto and feelings....
To be clear, this reaction is normal and absolutely on cue. I can almost set my watch on when it will happen after the trauma you have been through. Oh yes, here it comes. Poster after poster and always the same.
You are not a failure, your life isn't done, it's a set back which if you grow through it will never happen again. Ever. You were a target and it really hurts. And I am not going to lie to you, there will be a part which will seem broken for a very long time. But it does lessen.
A set back, but also a growth opportunity. A challenge.
You have one very big important thing in your life to be a dad to S3. No one can do that job but you.
The housing sitch is temporary. The cash issue is temporary. The love of a dad for an S3 is bigger than all of that.
I Internet promise it gets better and better. This is the worst it could be. And you did terrifically well on Thursday last to get yourself through the court system with the result you did.
Hugs
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
