It will hit hard. And a day later you will be like, do what you want.
It's not too late it just seems beyond your control. Fact is it was always beyond your control.
Stay strong.
M 53 W 54, M since 98 D15, D19 8/2013 discovered EA, W maintained contact with OM until 10/14 7/2/17 W said she wanted S, 7/25/17 moved out of MBR 12/17 W says moving out 5/18, W still in home.