Laurie, thank you.

I just put my teenager/four-year-old H and S4(really is) to bed. H and S were going back and forth about each of them not liking each other. H does get right down to S's level after he's had a few, he acts the same age!!

H had been drinking called here right before my party was going to start to say he was going to be here shortly..he was drunk. My party lady was late, my S was out of control and H was on his way home. My friend got here first and just spilled thet whole mess to her..H was drunk and on his way here, blah, blah. She just said oh geez!

While I was on the phone with H, he said that "he wasn't coming home tonight, was going to OW's (out of the blue he says this) said there was a message on OW's answering machine that he was supposed to listen to..he said what the message was and it was what I had told him I said--that I was going to come over there. I said yeah I know I said that. I said how do you know there's a message on OW's machine...he didn't say anything right away and he sure didn't tell me OW called him. So OW is saving the message to get H over there. Why doesn't this surprise me.

On my way home I was starting to get an anxiety attack again, the ones like I had last year about this time, but it miracously went away. And I feel back on my feet again, back with God again. Maybe God did look the other way last night when I made the call..who knows. I was sobbing and crying a bit before I made the call, having a little pity party.

Tomorrow I'm going to confront my H about driving with S to the restaurant down the street! H had been drinking and H knew I was having this party. H did come and in talk to my friends who he hasn't seen in quite awhile and my SIL who he hasn't seen in ages, well I don't know if she actually talked to him or not.

So H is home tonight, at least. You're right Laurie I think this fighting over H does feed his ego, but I also think it didn't bother him quite as much as it should.

Cathy