OK it isn't called a rollercoaster for nothng. And even in your high you still seemed angry. You won't truly be over her until you feel apathy towards her. Don't rush it. Let yourself work through the emotions and try to stay busy. Even during down time at the firehouse.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018