Good morning Cathy,

I would not worry about the fact that you called ow (this from the queen of second-guessing herself ) for a couple of reasons:
-you ARE human, you DO get frustrated sometimes, you HAVE been incredibly patient and understanding and things got to the point where you reacted a little bit. It's normal. It's understandable.
-Your H has mentioned a couple of times that you don't care, that you don't really want him, that he's better off somewhere else....the whole "poor me" syndrome....WELl you just proved to H what you are willing to do for him and for your M. You showed him that you would go find him if he didn't come home on his own.

I don't think a lot of people would agree with this post but it's how I see it. He knows now. He can't say you dont' care.

Don't worry about it and go on with your great DB'g. You ARE still the most patient person I know.

Minnie