Stop beating yourself up over the call. It's done and over with. A moment of insanity on your part in an otherwise sane brain.
I too would stretch out the trust talk with your H. It is an opening for letting him know that you have trusted him for so long and the testing of that trust finally got to you. That you need for him to communicate with you in order to build up the trust level. That you need him to act in a way that deserves your trust. And you will do the same for him.
But hey - if he gets his undies in a bundle, then let him. He has pushed the limits of your R so much that you were bound to falter one time. You've learned that you don't like to feel that way so I doubt it will happen again.
Go hit a bucket of balls and alternate saying "take that" with "I won't do it again". How is that for your "punishment"! LOL!
Have a great day. You are incredibly strong!
totite
"Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..."
