Cathy, Why not talk to H about trust when he says, "you don't trust me do you?"
Something like "H I WANT to trust you... but you make it incredibly difficult. I need you to do blah, blah, blah for me to trust you. We need trust so that we can move forward..."
Do you have the book After the Affair? It give you some strategies for talking. I know your H is a unique man, but maybe some of them would have an impact.
Instead of asking where he was, ask for what you want... where you want him to be.
JMHO... and you know where it's coming from...
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.