My New Scenario

[Newly20]

Just bumming out these past 48hrs, thinking what could have been done differently> Is DB done for me? What else is there to do. I know it's not over until the ink is dry but I'm so lost right now.

When W initially left she said divorce meant nothing to her and that she would wait a year to decide if that's what she truly wanted. Wondering why the sudden change from her? I cant think of what i could have done on my part to push her over the edge per say.

I still have not confirmed OM but given the way my sitch has unfolded it seems highly likely. Does this change anything? If so, what approach should i take? Should i look into it further to see if i find anything.

At first i did say that if there was OM involved i would be done with this, but as time progressed i had a change of heart. When my D3 asks why we aren't together or when i will come over to stay at her new house it totally breaks me.

When i speak of my sitch to people IRL they give me advice to move on, still young and that i can find someone else. All this is soooo easy to say, but i cannot fathom it. This feeling of being an LBS is one of the saddest things one can go through. Still, its a fresh wound and I don't see the other side yet, hoping that with time this will begin to heal and i can be the best ME again.