I think you still expect your w to act like your w

Expectations are hurting you

You cannot do this forever

You can do this today

And you can move in with her present

It is somerhing that happens inside of you

No matter what your circumstances

Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids
2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong
2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2
2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving