So, my life is going ok. I'm moving forward. I consistently meet women that have gone through similar stories. I recently caught up with a very close old friend whose ex was really really bad as well.
I am still really angry at people capable of doing this to their families. They often act like "neither of us are bad people, we just make each other miserable". And the world accepts the divorce as this mutual thing. But that is not what i see. I see that usually its one bad person that cheats, lies, is an addict and living a double life. And sadly they had the power to drag down a family. They broke their contract. The level of selfishness is hard to fathom and their own denial and self justification is frustrating.
I dont necessarily know how common a mutual divorce is. I think there usually is this covert abuse..cheating, or drugs that is the major part of it. In which case the person being cheated on is better off...but still a victim.
So i am just really angry. Like I am against pedophiles and con artists and corrupt politicians.
My ex was a really cold cold person. To be able to just walk away from us. There was never any engagement, or doubts, or late night calls, or anything. That takes this extreme level of detachment on his behalf. And i dont understand how someone could be that empty and attached from the mother of his child? Its hard for me to stomach his mask. How nice and responsible he comes across to others. How he plays dad by taking son when hes supposed but barely keeps up with him.
Im not detached yet. But its not because i miss my ex or want him back. He showed me a long time ago the person he is and I know he's scum.
It's just i can't let go of my anger at his selfishness and deception. And at all cheaters/betrayals as well.
