WW in MLC affair and I need advice..

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I've been thinking (about points AS brought up) over the night and have come to the conclusion that I have put my own wall up towards my wife due to recent resentment created over this situation. It has caused me to act in none genuine ways. During this time there have been times that my gut tells me this doesn't feel right but I've then said well I've read that often times with a WS you have to go against logical thinking. Not to mention I m working on eliminating my NGS. My concern is that over the past 4 weeks my W will look back and say "what an *ss he has been at times, only thinking about himself like I said" and further justify her decisions are right. I need to stop analyzing everything and relating it to DBing and be the guy I want too be... someone only a fool would leave.

Would it be weak or wrong to tell my wife "Due to the current situation I have struggled at times and this has caused some of my actions and decisions recently to not be genuine"?

I don't want to get into details and rehash the past or create a R talk but would use going to the gym as an example. I could let her know ahead of time before going. Like I've been told in the past, no need to keep it a secret. I think I need to take a break from reading this forum daily and enjoy my trip. Not only enjoy the GAL, meeting new people on the trip but also use the time do reflect on what has been working and what hasn't. I need to come out genuine and focused and hope it's not too late.