My New Scenario

[Newly20]

Yes before i even got the actual paperwork i decided to respond to her text. I told her i did not believe that D was the solution to our problems but i would not stand in the way of her happiness.

What i believe she sees is someone who is just going with it, unbothered per say. I'm doing my best to not be a doormat and give in to her every request, and judging from our convo earlier it seems she thinks I'm angry or mad at her. This is far from the case! Slightly angry at her for tearing this family apart, but I'm not showing it. What i do have is extreme disappointment in her and the way things unfolded. I have no idea who she is anymore, that there is the huge killer for me.

Some days i bum out thinking on how this is my fault, but in reality it was a joint effort, our marriage got to this point because of US, not ME. At this point hope has extremely diminished. Now to continue moving forward with myself only, being the best father i can be and let the pieces of the puzzle fall into place as they need to.