Gotdie #19: patience, trust...and hope

[Gordie]

Hope - so I think in the dark days of OM2, my hope died. It was then when i was pushing for the D and wanted to get the heck away from w. You guys kept telling me to let go but i...couldnt. It was when hope died thst i finally, against my will, let go...not to sce the M but...as you wise souls said, to save myself. So then, she turned away from D. I have learned the hard way that turning away from D is not the same as turning towards me or M. Time will tell, but i have felt hope again in my heart. So where am I now? I am trying to get out of PTSD and surviving to a better place where i am living life again. I know mach1 and sonmany others have been telling me this for a while...but i am a slow learner.

Thank you all for sticking with me.

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