The past few days I've done A LOT better with detaching. I relize that she doesn't want to be with me tight now, and I'm fine with that. The more I think about it, shehas some major issues to work on that don't deal with me at all. A lot of it is her drug abuse. For years, she has struggled with addiction. I did my best to be supportive and get her help, but in her mind I came across as controlling and trying to tell her what she could or couldn't do. Not gonna lie, I was very adamant on her staying sober. She was in a good place before she got the bartending job, but being in that scene and living that lifestyle, the drugs came back into the picture. I think she felt the need to leave so she could live that lifestyle without any interference from me because she knew I wouldn't approve. W can't stand to be alone, so the majority of her time was spent at the bar or with other people that were doing drugs too. She doesn't like to be by herself, because then she has to deal with her thoughts. I guess it's easier for her to keep herself occupied with people that are supporting her decision to get high and leave her family...
Me: 38 W:31 Kids: S16(mine from previous R), D10, S9, S4 M: 10 years T:12 years BD:Jan 3, 2018 W moved out: Apr 13,2018 Filed for D: Jun 2018 D final: Sep 2019
