Seems impossible to go NC. Makes it twice as difficult to GAL, at least from a personal perspective.

At this point, I have to fully accept it's over. There's no way back.

So I might as well fully detach and accept the end and maybe be the one who makes it happen.

Do I feel like there is a reconciliation in the future. No, unless she came begging, but I don't see it. Too much trauma and neglect on both sides.

At least I can grow from this and show her that I could change and be a better person. She just had to leave me.