Oh man! This community has saved me so many times. Sending all you love and hugs as well.
I am taking the day to reset and recalibrate. I've just not let myself feel all the emotions and I gave raws the advice to let it all out, and I guess it helped me give myself permission to do that as well.
I am not grieving W, but the time with my kids and the concept of a family life. I've also just been the support for so many people in my life and been their rock, that I forgot how to fall down and let myself feel everything. I wish I had a rock right now that would take me, but y'all are, and I reached out to some people - which is a 180 for me as I would've never done that in the past. Always was a one-person army.
My anger is coming back up and I am going to put it back into slow burn. W is going to hella regret that she didn't give the family a second chance. F$%k her!!!
My kids deserve better and I am getting back up tomorrow stronger and more focused.
