get your self a good support group. Just like everyone is so helpful and friendly here . Create a fellowship with your friends or relatives so that in times of need or crisis, instead of calling W call them. Hopefully it helps. I know how you feel but as in the Beatles song"I get by with a little help from my friends!" good luck!
M51 w50 T-20Yrs M-16Yrs S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up 1 Awesum dog BD 10/31/17 separate rooms 02/08/18 wife moved out 05/17/18