Work is my issue.
Lots of cubicle time. It gives me WAY Too much time to live in my head, way too much time to dwell on her....
That coupled with the trauma bond combined with forced NC.

More and more of what she did, how she manipulated and lied becomes more apparent everyday, and the angrier at her i get the more i miss her. Its F***ED.

Plus she has occupied A LOT of my mind space in a sexual manner lately.
Like A lot. i miss the love and affection, but also the sex life that died ages ago. Seems petty and shallow to miss that and have it occupy so much of my thoughts too.

M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4
All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18
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2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD
2 Major breakups.
2 Rebounds