No affair(?), no feelings...is there hope? Part II

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If a stranger passed by and told you that your eyes are purple, would you shrug it off, maybe even have a chuckle about it........or would you get down in the dumps and think, "He thinks I have purple eyes. I know I don't, but he sees me in that way, and it upsets me. What can I do to convince him otherwise". Would you go buy colored contact lens, or try to verbally convince the stranger differently, or get a report from the eye specialist to verify your eyes aren't really purple? No......if anything you would be amused, instead of letting it get next to you. You might say something like, "Yeah, I get my eyes after my mother" (as you bat your lashes). You know the truth and the only way this could upset you is to care too much what the stranger thinks of your eyes. By caring too much, it causes you to doubt yourself, become defensive, paranoid, have an excessive need to convince the other person it's not true, etc.

I love this. What a perfect analogy, what you meant is crystal clear now.

In the case with your WW, I didn't mean seriously agree. Like hang your head and admit it, or agreeing to appease her. Use a comeback response where it kind of sounds like the words are agreeing with the W....but your tone and expression are sounding as if you find the whole thing to be a little amusing. Not every time, but in some instances where she is being so childish. Stay nonchalant, and if you can sound as if you find humor in it.........then give a soft laugh or a little smile. You are not seriously agreeing with her.

W: "You are so rude and inconsiderate"!
H: "That's me! Mr. Rude & Inconsiderate".

See how that sounds? You are not arguing, explaining, being defensive, going silent, or any of that stuff. You keep your tone of voice light. Here's the thing. You have verbally agreed, in an odd kind of way. But she knows you are not taking her jab seriously. She can't hurt you by saying negative things about you, b/c you will turn it around and sound as if you are agreeing......and you seem fine with it. Trust me, it will stop her from taking those jabs, b/c she doesn't get the desired results from you. Yes, it will probably make her angry......but who cares? Not you! Your WW wants you to jump through hoops and act like a trained poodle.......but it's not going to work.

This all makes complete sense. I can definitely do this.

Does that clarify things any better? If not, then maybe just forget it and I'll think of something else. I thought maybe your personality would lean this direction, but if I'm wrong, just speak up and tell me. BTW, nonchalant is not an excuse to not address her behavior. It's a different way of addressing it.

Yes it does. No, you were right, this does fit my personality. This approach is great for when she makes her extremely childish jabs, and like you said as long as I use it appropriately and don't overuse it, I think it will work well. Now, I need to figure out how I will respond when she is more serious and in full on attack mode because I don't think the nonchalant bit will work then. But I'll come back to this point in a minute.

There is some misconception in girls being attracted to bad boys. Normal women do not want to have a bad person for a H. What attracts women to the bad boy image is his self confidence. He isn't a mama's boy. He doesn't let Mama or any other chick run his life. He thinks for himself, and if his woman gets a little bossy, shows a sense of self entitlement, nags, or any other unattractive quality......he tells her to get lost. He is not subservient or submissive. He is an alpha male and he always dominates his woman.......and that's why there are no issues with him not getting enough sex. He knows the difference in dominating and domineering.

Ah, you have explained this perfectly. It's the traits (confidence, assertiveness) that are often found in "bad boys" that they want, not so much the actual 'bad' part.

Stop it. It makes perfect sense to me. She is not paranoid or manic! Stop making excuses for her. She is wayward. I told you she would do this. B/c she's cheating, she is going to suspect your sudden interest in GAL is for the same purpose. That's why I told you to secure your IPad, b/c she is going to search nigh and low to see what you are doing. Here the thing. Let her be jealous, and wonder if there is someone else. Not that I am trying to get you to be cruel, but this is what she needs in order to shake her and make her realize she could lose you. This is a distraction from her OM. Don't pretend there is another woman, or try to make her jealous.......but neither should you take interrogation. OMG, she takes you for granted, can't you see it? The WW doesn't want her H, but she doesn't want anyone else having him. Just keep doing your thing. Don't lie, but don't give her solid answers. She doesn't get to interrogate you. I hope you chose this opportunity to use, "I'm not the one in the military". You can always hold up hand in the "stop" position and say, "I am not going to be interrogated". And just ignore the rest of her questions.

You are right, Sandi. If I'm being honest, it makes perfect sense to me too. It's so nice to have someone to slap me upside the head when I lose my smarts. Seriously, I need it. I can see it--she absolutely takes me for granted, plain and simple. I won't allow the interrogation and I will let her wonder.

I would have a very hard time keeping my mouth closed at her passive-agressive remarks to the dogs in the mornings! But, I suppose ignoring it is best, for now. My gosh, this woman is making me want to throw up! Surely I wasn't that disgusting!
I've always been pretty direct, so I don't think there is much passive-agressive junk in me. Please tell me you did not fix her a packed lunch.

It is pretty amazing (in a bad way). It's like all her flaws have been amplified 10x. The positive side is it is making it a lot easier for me to not care what she thinks and, honestly, be a lot less sure about wanting her back. Right now, this is a good thing for me. No, I definitely did not pack her lunch, or care when she tried to give me hell for it.

If it is her job......then stop saying "cool" and stop thanking her for doing her job. Once she starts acting like a grown up, then you can say more......maybe, IDK. For now, just say, "Okay". Just b/c she acts as if she's doing you a big favor, doesn't mean you should act as if she's doing you a big favor, too. Drop the NGS stuff.

Got it.

This is a load of cr@p. It is your NGS talking. Do they have a Walmart store where you live? You can purchase a blue barracks bag type of laundry bag for about $5 or $6. Or you can use a large trash bag or a plastic tub to set in "her" bedroom for "her" dirty clothes. I mean, what's the difference in sorting dirty clothes or clean clothes? If you are washing them all together, but leaving her clean clothes in the laundry room........you are still sorting at some point, aren't you? I think it would fix Miss Fancy Britches up right nicely let her do [b]all of her own laundry.

Totally fair, and yes the sorting becomes an issue either way. We don't have Walmart, but I'm sure I can get a bag. In fact, we have a lot of hampers and baskets. I actually ended up telling her I am going to stop doing her laundry this morning, but more on that later.

Yeah, it's all I can do to keep my cool with you, too! Wasn't it you I warned about these excuses of taking the higher ground....be the bigger person, nice-guy b.s.? "It was all you could do to keep your cool" is a lie. You were scared sh'tless.

You know, if you weren't so scared of her leaving, and if you'd really lose your cool when she acted this way, she might stop kicking you in the face every day! All you could do to keep your cool.........my a$$. Ignoring her passive-aggressive remarks to the dogs is one thing. But this tantrum she threw, screams of self entitlement, and it was directed straight at you. If there was EVER a time you should have stood up to her.....it was at that moment. She thinks b/c she brings home the paycheck, you are worthless and she is entitled to be waited on hand & foot. And, you ran back into your turtle shell, so expect more of the same to come.

Maybe I was wrong. Maybe you won't be able to use lighthearted comebacks. Not after this episode. It may be too late for anything that hints of a lighter note.

So, back the lighthearted comebacks issue. I do think there is a time and place where they are very useful and I can use them. But during these full on tantrums, not so much. Are you saying it's okay for me to lose my cool? You are right, I was scared sh'tless. But, not only because of her attack, I was also totally in fear of doing/saying the wrong thing. I didn't want to launch into an over-explainer speech. I didn't want to yell back. So I froze and did very little. I'm not afraid to make her mad, clearly she already is. I just want to make sure that if I jump in the ring with her, I put her in her place and walk out with the upper-hand. When she comes at me with all her "Must be nice to not have to go to work" B.S., my instinct is going to be to explain to her why her argument is full of holes. I am a debater. I don't think this is the right approach here and I don't want to start arguing with her lack of logic. Her attacks are very predictable, I just need to plan exactly how I will respond and there will be no more 'turtling'.

Well, this is what it's going to be like.......and not standing up to her, just set you back. So get ready!

Ugh, I know. Don't worry, I'm about to get plenty more chances.

I like you, but I'm not your mama, and I will tell you how it is.......not how you want to hear it is. It's time you put on your man pants, and accept that things are going to get worse. Maybe you M a she-devil, but you certainly have done your part in making her feel so self entitled. Now, you've got to set it straight.....or get out. You haven't known misery, yet.

Not gonna lie, this scares me. But, that's okay. If this is the course it needs to take, I'm ready. When I first started learning what to do after BD, I think I got the impression that I wanted to avoid fighting with W at all costs. We weren't at a place where we hated each other and that was a good thing. But, in my case, I have created a monster. I don't think she is truly a she-devil--or least she wasn't when I married her--and I fully acknowledge my part in making her so self-absorbed and entitled. So, I guess it has to get ugly before it gets better, is that what you're saying?

Back to the part where I said I told her she can do her own laundry. She is currently working 12 hour shifts and doesn't get home til midnight. So, I didn't have to deal with her much last night. When she did come home, she was friendly. I do have to say, we used to fight like this a lot, before we learned how to communicate a lot better and she gained a lot more self-control over her temper. Back then, she could hold a grudge for eternity. Now at least, she seems to get over it pretty quickly. Anyway, this morning started out fine, but went downhill right before she left for work.

She started into her bit about how she's working 12 hours and I don't care to help. Complained about her laundry again. Said something like if I can't do it properly and keep it from getting wrinkled and hairy, then she will do it. Ah, perfect! I told her, good idea. I will stop doing your laundry from now on. This only made her angrier. Eventually, she said "This is going to turn bad, I know it." Referring to us living together.

Here's my problem. I feel like sitting her down and telling her she needs to knock off all the complaining and passive-aggression. We can have an agreed upon set of expectations for what I do as support since she is the one working and I have more time. I will make it clear she cannot expect this to include personal favors.

The problem is this is talking and explaining. I'm supposed to be showing her what she can expect by just not doing things that I shouldn't, right? I just hate this stupid dance where she tries to act like I'm failing and "holding something over her head". That's always been her favorite card to play. She can make it seem like anyone is holding anything over her head. If I'm refusing to do things for her anymore, it's because I'm holding the fact that she wants out of our marriage over her head. Really? Don't worry, I know that is her twisting things with all her might. Anyway, if the dance is necessary, I can suck it up and keep going. But, I just feel like there is a way I can stand up and put a stop to it.