Another not so great day. The wife came over to pack her things. I probably should have just left. Instead I talked to her. I know I most likely pushed her away. She told me she went on a date last night. That was not easy to hear. Part of me thinks that she is trying to cause me pain intentionally. I told her I had the final divorce papers. They showed up at work. I would sign them when I was ready. She didn't like that. After she left, I drove to work, picked them up, went to her work, signed them and gave them to her. I was pretty hot. I spun my tires leaving. Probably shouldn't have. I'm trying to detach. I know I'm not doing it right, it is much easier said than done. I told her I need her to stop coming by. For me. I can't do it. Pack your [censored], and move on. I don't know when I will be okay, but I know that I won't be if she keeps coming around. I told her maybe in the future she could, but right now it is killing me. It is safe to say we are not on the best terms right now. I talk to my daughter about everything. We went for a walk today, and I asked her how long I should try for mom. She told me what mom is doing isn't fair to anyone, and that she has been given her chance, that it would be ok to stop trying now. She doesn't want to see me hurt. That helps. I don't know what I'm going to do when she goes to stay with her mother though.
