Love is not a feeling (there are basically 6 or 8 feelings, joy, sadness, disgust, anger, surprise amoung them). If you want to look into this please examine the Disney Film inside out. Highly highly recommended for you and your son to watch together. Love is a state like peace or excitement or despair. These states are a choice, and the body can only hold one at a time. That is why GAL is so important it creates a change of body state. It changes your body chemistry.
There is going to be plenty of time after Thursday for those discussions, let's get you through Thursday ordeal and out the other side.
That means a body state of confidence not love for you. Choose to be confident.
Do not rely on WW backing down, and be prepared to eat plates of sh@t sandwiches. See lots of awful behaviour. Be prepared for it and please don't let it take you by surprise (emotion!) As this will take away your confidence. Be prepared to see the acting of her life, be prepared for lies and be prepared for the worst realisations that can ever be. Be prepared for manipulation, false accusations and fabricated evidence. This cold fish knows your son is important to you so be prepared for the start of a set up to separate you from him and be prepared for false accusations of anything.
I truly hope that won't happen, and I will be projecting strength. The key is lack of surprise. Imagine I am watching your back as you go into court and that you are not alone. Arrange a sturdy friend to meet you afterwards. And Eat before you go in, carry water, dress smartly, shirt tie and clean shoes. Have some thing in your hands to stop busy hands. A notepad perhaps. Use the loo before you go in. Meet with L for a quick debrief. Use deodorant on the day and get a haircut on Tuesday. Cover any visible tattoos. No drinking or even sleep aids from Tuesday. Rest Wednesday even if you can't sleep.
Remember you have not done anything wrong, you are falsely accused. Be confident in that and that all the evidence is fabricated. Have your shuff together, be credible, look credible, you may or may not sleep but rest. Be categorical in your denial of anything you don't agree with, and be sure to say you have and you will stay away from WW.
This is trauma but you will get through it. If you are credible, look good and can keep yourself strong then it can go away, they may back down. The courts are busy. I am what is known as a McKenzie friend in the UK and help women who have been falsely accused of assault get through this. There is a saying a scratch beats a bruise in false abuse.
Afterwards be prepared for shock to kick in, you will be on adrenalin so once again eat and get an early night. How you treat yourself in the next 7 days will be very influential for your health.
So back to Love (which is a state). Be prepared to learn that cold fish only M you for the fin support you can give. That's shocking but par for the course.
I don't want to loop you, just prepare you to face the worst which you don't deserve.
After Thursday I will chat here all you like but know I believe you and you have my full support. I will take your post above and analyse it in depth and that will take a few days.
Trauma bond is tough to understand, if you wish to read how that works Joseph2017 also had this dynamic and he is ahead of you on the road. His threads are only 3 in number you may find them helpful.
Zelda and I put together an abuse thread you may find useful as a starter. It's ok, you will get through this.
And in my opinion you were a target.
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Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
