MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART VI

[ItHurts]

Thanks guys! Well Bluwave, here's the thing that complicates things for me regarding how I forgave her. I've learned that I, sadly, was the root of all that slowly ended our marriage. Not listening to her when she needed me, not seeing she was unhappy for a long time and I was too consumed in other things trying to make our finances better. This wenron for years and she stick it out as long as she could until one day she reached her breaking point. It was around this time that OM and all that happened. Although she is not blameless...and she always has said we were both at fault for our failed marriage...I do truly see now in hindshight that I essentially drove her to the EA by never being there for her emotionally for many, many years. She tried to hang in there and did longer than even I would be able to...but I still wasn't a man anymore. She lost her attraction for me because of my faults and even though I was her husband and she loved me, I was friend-zoned. So it tore her up.

So basically I didn't find it hard to forgive her, I did, however,find it very difficult to forgive myself for letting things get to a desperation point for her when all of it could've been preventing had I not been so oblivious. She never wanted to hurt me but she had to have a life...and I had to essentially get one.
Hope that helps.

Ironically I'm seeing her tomorrow night and today was the exact 4 year mark since the bomb drop on 4-27-14. Life is funny and full of surprises isn't it?

Well I'm thinking tomorrow I'm going to bring Chinese food over. I'm going there straight from work and won't have time to eat so maybe I'll text her tomorrow and tell her not to eat. She always loved Chinese food and I've been craving it anyway.
I'll keep you guys posted on round 3 with her. Have a great weekend everyone!