Sorry for your sitch. The fact that you are able to be around her says volumes. We all feel like our feelings are settled. Fact is they are never settled.

The Pursuer/Distancer dynamic is a simple yet often not understood one. When a connection is missing, a chased individual will flee. Once it is no longer chased the sitch can reverse its self.

I did not go back and read your original thread. Only where you are today.
I think you have to decide if it is your wounded ego that is keeping you from moving forward. I'm not saying that it is not rightly so.
But perhaps IC or just some personal exploration to decide why or what it is that you want to do. Life is short. When you have someone that wants you, that too can change.


M 53 W 54, M since 98
D15, D19
8/2013 discovered EA, W maintained contact with OM
until 10/14
7/2/17 W said she wanted S, 7/25/17 moved out of MBR
12/17 W says moving out 5/18, W still in home.