Really nothing to say to her at this point until she proves she wants something.
this here bothers me... you are still waiting for her... you won't move on while you wait to see if she proves she wants something... she has proven to you that she does not want "something," that something being your marriage... your very young marriage... you two have been mostly separated in your marriage... you went NC, and she played a lot of head games with you... you came back to her, and she pushed you right back out of her everyday life... she followed the script we told you about...
she says she wants better for you because you deserve better... those are just words... she is still self-focused, thinking of herself only... you need to follow her lead and get yourself self-focused... take your eyes off of her... you did it before, and you can do it again...
this is the scary pattern i have come to see here with LBSs... they garner the strength to go NC/dark... they GAL and do 180s for themselves... they begin to feel better about themselves, the Wayward Spouse senses this and decides to pop in... wants to talk... wants to "see" if things can work out... LBSs are warned by other DBers that it's likely just a temp-check, but they still fall for it... they have a day or night or week of bliss with their Wayward Spouse, and then BOOM! Wayward Spouse leaves again... this time the LBS is more broken than before--worse than BD some say... i vividly see that with you and PsySara... each time you go through the cycle, you come back weaker...
stop cycling... do what you did before... make plans with friends... go away for the weekend... GAL... and keep posting here more consistently for the time-being... until you are stronger... you can get there again, Chris...
