Revik, I have to point out a huge error in thinking in your original post:
"She sent me pictures, the kind that I should have deleted, but being a man, I saved them. "
Being a man? A man would have said "I am married, do not send these to me anymore." A man would have blocked her so no more photos could come through. A man would have nipped it in the bud before photos were even sent.
A boy is one who not only encourages the photos, but enjoys them and keeps them.
You need to adjust your thinking about what constitutes a man if you have any hope of ever moving your MR to R.
You seem to have a bit of Nice Guy Syndrome too. That is the kind of guy that says: "Another thing that I should add, I realize I haven't been the best husband. I think that I am genuinely a good man."
"But! I am a nice guy!" Being a good man means you don't expect rewards for being "good". Being a good man means that you strive to be the best husband you can be.
You still have a lot of work to do on yourself if you ever hope to have a successful relationship in the future.
Oh, and thank you for your service! I genuinely view you as a hero, despite the 2x4 I just planted against your skull.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
