No more denial, time to get to work

[MRay]

W initiated R talk tonight. She called an attorney today to set up mediation for us. She says it's just not fair to either of us to remain in limbo. She can't find herself and move on while in this state, and she doesn't want to end up depressed like her dad. I knew this was coming, and I'll be okay, but for right now I'm devastated. I just wanted my kids to grow up in a loving house with two loving parents. I want to be with my kids every day. I will do my best for them, but it just won't be the same and it feels wrong. I'm just not sure what else to say or do. I just feel...wrong.