Talk to legal. Continue no contact. Be careful with what you say and do.

She doesnt want anything to do with you right now. Believe that. Accept that.

(I know it hurts to be discarded like that)

Just lots of self care. You need to start Learning how to love yourself more.

It gets easier. You will realize she is not a prize. Be prepared for keeping your cool with any thing that comes up

To me, it sounds like she is painting a picture. Of course you are emotional. You love her. But don't trust her.

M: 42
H: 43
Twins age 5
WAH in summer