Yeah. i totally feel you. i know what you mean, precisely. we can understand something intellectually, but our emotions can take some time to catch up to what we know intellectually.
Don't worry, your emotions will sync in with what you believe is the right thing to do.
I started climbing as my GAL activity and also because I've been wanting to do it for a long time. you have a lot of history climbing with W, and that can be triggering.
So, let's get to a new GAL activity for you that has no association with W. Is there something you've been meaning to try for a while? Let's start there.