Yes, I know the fear that I'll ruin my chances to reconcile by developing a spine isn't realistic, but it's soo deeply ingrained.

Even though I know I did the right thing, part of my feels like I'm blowing an opportunity to establish a connection.

Me, H-39, W-33
T11, M3
No children
Bomb 10/17 - "Not sure what she wants"
Bomb 2 12/17 - forced convo it did not go well.
W moved out 3/18
OM Confirmed 4/1
D Final 9/27/18