Advice on my scenario pt. 2

[OrangeK]

I just live in fear that the TRO will be lifted and she will continue to just ghost me. I know I'm not much more well equipped to deal with her with the DB techniques, but i may have FUBAR'ed this whole situation before ever finding DB stuff.
The fear of the unknown is always the strongest fear.

The remorselessness that she has seemingly thrown away our entire life with is just mind boggling.

Steve, i feel like i am not looking back as much as i am very VERY much fretting over how things will happend in the future.
We will have to co parent no matter what, and i just have NO $*%&ING CLUE how shes going to act, treat me, expect or say when we can talk.
She has hidden behind the RO for so long i dont know if i will even recognize the woman i talk to when its gone.

I feel like my wife is dead. Whoever carrys hear name and wears her face these days......just isnt the amazing soul i fell head over heels for.

I miss my happy family so much. i miss waking up on sundays and having us all pile in bed and laugh. So much.
it breaks my heart to a million shards to think she isnt missing that, that she isnt hurting for our boy.
she may be, thats the problem.
I HAVE NO IDEA.