A quick answer and will try to go more in depth later.
I can't seriously figure out how to commit suicide.
I believe thinking about it is a part of the black/white thinking I do.
I wade through it and I come back up.
I realize it isn't something I am capable of doing. But the thoughts aren't pleasant and I like it when I get past that point.
That was why thinking of asking Sage to do the devil's advocate and do the logical thinking for me. I decided that is something I needed to do for myself and not something I could ask her to do.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
