Responsibility, Logic & Underreacting

[psluke]

I'm pulling out my 2 x 4.

Brace yourself, cause I'm not sure I know how to wield this thing correctly.

PIB,

I love you! Thank you for the laugh!

A) Suicide is a failure.

I realize that, but I also feel I have already failed. When I am thinking that way it is just the wrapping up of my failed life.

B) Given the choice between moving back home or suicide, move back home.

I really do not want to ask my parents to go to all the trouble of getting a house sit for me at their farm. I wish I could explain how I feel about that clearly.

C) Since you are still experiencing suicidal thoughts, you need to get to the Doctor ASAP.

They weren't wild crazy kind of thoughts, it was rather calm and a lot of thought into organizing things. But there was no solution to the final step. So I take that to mean subconsciously I don't want that to be the path I take.

D) You might need your dosage adjusted but there is absolutely no way you are ready to stop taking Zoloft.

I agree, but I really am more of a problem with like if I am in a relationship. Since I won't be doing anything but mostly working. It shouldn't be a problem as long as I can ease off of them without problems.

E) At the level of medication you are taking, I seriously doubt that St. John's Wort would have much of an impact on you.

I was afraid of that. Did you try St John's Wort?

F) Until you stop considering suicide an option, you will remain stuck. You need to accept that suicide is not an option and get moving on the path of life.

I am moving, there just is no destination.

G) Suicide is a stupid fantasy that solves nothing. It's a coward's way out. My own attempt has left me with a shame that I will carry the rest of my life. PLEASE do not make the same mistake I did.

Actually I consider myself too big of a coward to take that final step. So I don't believe you can be a coward and go that route.


Thank you for caring PIB. That isn't where I am at finally. I am trying to find some options for living.