A familiar story with questions. IV

[RR17]

I think the worst part of this holding pattern is looking for meaning in the slightest nuances. Most are probably meaningless but once I became woke to Ws state it's easy to look back at the signs that I dismissed before discovery.

Hypervigilance is not easily ignored. Yes, I can control what I do with suspicions, but I can't ignore the suspicion.

Some days are easier than others. Not doing something to directly affect it is maddening.

I lost my last living parent last November and I spend more time pondering this sitch than I do thinking about him.