Welcome to the tightrope Between the freedom and the chain
Welcome to the tightrope Stretched high above the street
Welcome to the tightrope It's right beneath your feet
Once you learn to balance truth and sorrow You can worry about the rest tomorrow
I feel like I am on a tightrope right now doing a balancing act between holding myself together or losing it totally.
I want to do no more crazymaking and assuming thinking in my life, but I know I have a lot more work to do to get to that point in my life, if I ever do.
I want to convince myself that there is going to be a life worth living once this divorce goes through.
I believe if I still had one of my hobbies that I would be better off. I do own that it is my choice to no longer participate in the dog activities. A variety of reasons.
1. I don't want to see CHL and J together.
2. I don't want to see ex friends J or D regardless of rather CHL is there or not.
3. There are lots of memories associated with the dog shows. The good times my friends and I have had over 10 plus years of traveling and showing together. The good times CHL and I had going to shows together. Then a year ago J announcing at the biggest show of the year that I'm getting a D and I didn't even know it and CHL just standing there like a bump on a log.
So right now it is a balancing act and I'm trying to win on the side of responsibility, remaining calmly in control and underreacting.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
