WW moved out. Whirlwind of emotions

[reframe]

Thanks man.

Was doing much better today, but had a lot of interaction with her and it has taken a toll on me. Staying pleasant and upbeat (But no pursuit!) when I interact with her is still really hard. We talked about financial stuff, taxes and dogs. Lots of interactions today.

I just meet her a few minutes ago for her to take one of the dogs for the weekend. She wanted to meet someplace in the middle (ever since I asked her to communicate when she'll be at our place). I let the dog run to her and she screamed at me because we where beside a road. I ignored the tantrum, and then told her to have a good weekend. She attempted to hug me again and I responded very half heartedly.
She gave me more crap about how I need "8 hugs a day, etc.."

Very hard to see her being all pleasant (like we should be all buddy buddy) and still clearly moving on with her life.

I'm not even sure I actually WANT her at this point, but this is still impossibly hard. I feel drained from all the convos with her today.

I think I'm doing the right things (acting "as if", being pleasant and upbeat, ...) but I'm still clearly pretty emotionally enmeshed in this. Now that I'm starting to realize this wasn't ALL my fault, I have a lot of anger toward her that I find it hard to keep to myself.