Still trying in a hopeless(?) situation...

[joejoe1]

State,

No, no, no. You are worried about pushing her away, take a step back and look at your situation objectively. I know it's hard but your W is not coming closer to you.

You think not telling her how you feel about this trip will make your feel better and trust her more. You think you will trust her more after she comes back from this trip that your are already suspicious about if you don't say anything? No you are going to worry and wonder.

Stop worrying about what your W will think. Start worrying about how you feel. How do your feel? Stop worrying about pushing her away. You need to be pulling yourself away. She needs to feel the lost of you. Stop worrying about the lost of her. You are worth more! Pick yourself up, don't agree to a trip that she didn't ask your or incorporate you about. Be the man of the house and M. You tell her, that her decision is BS and you disagree.

"It comes as desperate and untrusting", But you don't trust her, that's the truth right? Don't fake like you trust her when you don't, that is NGS, and that is not want a man and H does, he is honest and upfront.

You have to start standing your ground and stop worrying about her feelings. Start taking care of State. She needs to get on your train now, get off of hers. I know it's hard. Take it one situation and day at a time.