Today, I went for a run and then to the gym to lift weights.
Then I went to a local non-profit law organization to help them put together a desk. My mother-in-law tagged along. She is a very good woman. My husband's father had a midlife crisis and left her when my husband was born. He cheated during that time and claimed to have never been happy and to not remember most of their marriage. He's married now, not to the OW, but to someone else. It will crush her when she finds out that her son is basically doing the same thing.
I'm... I'm incredibly anxious. I realized today that text message notifications on my phone scare me. I know that if, God forbid, they are from him, it'd nothing good.
A year ago, he tried to pull a similar stunt. He decided that when he moved to his duty station, he and his guy friend (the one who stood him up) will live together and be roommates and that I was not welcome there. I told him absolutely not and he went off the rails: called me a b1tch and the worst person he has ever met. Eventually, I ended up getting us a place on post and his friend did not move down there until almost a year later and then went to live 2 hours away in a town where his university is (which makes bloody sense). But when my husband had his mind made up, he was making crazy plans and everything had to be done in a hurry and his way and there was no getting him to see reason.
This is exactly how he is behaving with this girl right now. I feel like I am sitting on a powder keg.
The more I look at this situation, the more I realize that I am dealing with someone who is fundamentally unstable and irrational. That scares me.
I am going to go do abs right now and then will head over to a coffee shop to work on my paper.
It's... it's hard to truly enjoy my GAL experience when in the back of my mind I keep waiting for how he will screw me over next, and I know that it's coming and probably sooner rather than later.
Me: 28 H: 30 T: 9 M: 7
WAH: First half of 2017. Round 2 started in Spring 2018.
