Sorry the emotions are getting you today. But just keep coming here and you will get past them.
When I taught smoking cessation, we used to tell folks, when the urge hits, think "This too shall pass". It seems simple, but it works.
Another thought is to do deep breathing exercises. Just close your eyes, take a deep breath in through your nose, and then exhale through your mouth with your lips pursed. That is a great relaxation technique and may get you past some hard moments too.
Lastly, avoiding the doctor may not serve you well in the end. Find the strength to call, ask for the nurse and leave the info. You do not have to talk to the doctor - talking to her staff is fine. She will get the message. Don't you think you owe yourself that much? Think about it okay?
Hang in there!
totite
"Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..."
