Thank you for your welcome replies. Some feedback I have had from friends and colleagues have suggested that my response may have been a bit on the punitive side, so I have done some serious reflection today on the content of the email and why I have asked for no contact except through solicitors. I am just so tired of it all - the ups and downs - the waiting for the contact he initiates (or not) - it’s like being permanently in a state of unpreparedness - one minute I get a text stating how "my nobility fills his heart with respect and regret - regret for what he has lost through his actions and selfishness and then next he's talking about divorce. I think I have done everything I can to try and save my marriage - honestly, I don't know how you amazing women (and men) have stood by for years while this has continued. I know it sounds like I am giving up but with everything else that's going on right now I can’t afford to dwell on him. I haven't heard anything from him since the crazy text message following the email I sent and I don't quite know how I feel about that - I guess a part of me hopes he will contact me because it fills me with hope (false hope that he still loves me) but I do realise that at this stage the best thing I can do is let it go - he is choosing to be with his AP and I have to learn to accept that. The NC is very hard for me but I do find the longer it goes on the easier it gets......so I will let things unfold as they should and in the meantime try find some peace and solace in believing that for me things will start getting a little easier but for him things will start getting a little harder......... . Thoughts anyone???
