waw maybe #3

[bhappy2]

Hello Sandi, W got home after I left for work so I didnt see her until Tuesday. I woke up about 11am and she was sitting on the couch watching TV, I used the bathroom and went back to bed. I never even looked her way. I then wake back up at 12:30 to shower and start my day, she starts with HEY, how are you? I said good how are you? Then she begins saying did you get the pics I sent you, I said yes.

Her attitude and demeanor are as if nothing is wrong. As if D papers have not been filed. She is like my old W, I am really conflicted with the way she is acting. Its actually freaking me out a little, its just plain weird... you want to D me but your being friendly.

She says "I heard you have been cooking dinner every night" I said yes its all good we had some great meals. I said I am going to cook tonight as me and our children wanted a certain dinner, well as I complete cooking W starts to clean the pans I used. I said please leave it I got it. She said ok but proceeded to finish cleaning the pan she started.

I can tell you this, I am more confused today then at BD, I have no idea what she is doing. I really would rather just get the D over with. Her L will not return calls and my L said if I want we can push this hard if I want. I told her to hold off for a few days.

Have there been LBH that in the course of DB actually didnt want to take back their WAW? I am starting to not have any feelings for her. Somebody help me with this... is it b/c she hurt me so badly? B/c I will never be able to trust her if we do R?

What changed over the last month and a half that she is more friendly to me. Yesterday was the first time in 10 months that she came to the bedroom to say goodbye as she was leaving for work. She would normally just walk out the door with saying a word.