WW moved out. Whirlwind of emotions

[reframe]

Setback (for me) that I have no one but myself to blame for.
I snooped a bit, and saw that she used her ovulation tracker (i.e. avoiding getting pregnant) last night.
I knew she was sleeping with OM, but the visceral confirmation that my wife has sex with him last night is really hitting me hard.

We're supposed to do taxes together tomorrow, I'm not sure how I can keep my rage and depression to myself when we do.
I feel pretty down and hopeless right now.

I realize the snooping is self sabotage. Really struggling right now though.