Thank you for the advice, Job. Still hoping that some people will post stories here,but I guess those who have succeeded usually don't come back. I took a look at the thread you mentioned and it sucked all the life out of me! I had better stick to prayer but I did learn a lot from my foray back onto this board, and gained a lot of understanding of what is happening, it was really helpful and helped me to detach again. I realize now that he basically rebombed me, that he is "in monster" again, and that the whole MLC just started over. This is helpful to realize, because I had gotten confused and was actually listening to his words! Now I can detach. He is out of money so he may try to divorce me now so that he can get money out of our house, the last two days he is nonstop threatening that and spewing all kinds of monster like the early days. It is horrible, a living nightmare started all over again but I have some peace and feel a little ready. I will keep standing for our marriage even if through divorce.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.