First post, need someone to listen

[Vanilla]

One thing I think I should tell you. After BD1, I was a WAW and very abused in every way possible. I reacted by becoming 'screaming banshee'. This is reactive abuse, and I sought help for it, was deeply ashamed of it. Not good.

This reaction was from fear not anger with a tiny FOO issue which I resolved asap. This was a truly horrible part of my life.

However the abuse arises in you, and I get it, I truly do. In order to shift it then you have to own it.

It's a [censored] sandwich that's homemade, but walking to the pain and digging deep for a long time is the only thing that will resolve it. Then after full on atoning, yes that is another [censored] sandwich if your other half is a complete numpty and you don't want to, then you can forgive yourself.

First you own it and don't blame.

That is my experience and why I am giving you 4x4 as you get one good go at this after that it's uphill.

V