I told her I'm doing the best I can with a plan. I have a plan, she just doesn't like it. If I could go get a job immediately and support myself, things might be different. I told her I'm not holding onto hope and she can feel free to do whatever she wants (which I now realize was the biggest reason talking about the texting was a mistake). I reminded her that she is the one that wants the separation, not me, but she is trying to put it on me to solve that problem for her. This made her very frustrated and she went into work without responding.
44tries,
The reality of the situation is that she's lost respect for you. To her you're just a dependent wimpy guy and she's trying to unload you as fast as possible.
You should have a plan for yourself. She won't have to approve of the plan because it's your plan and it's for you. You should plan to get a job and support yourself on your own without her. Continue your education. Continue your growth as a person, and move on.
What you're currently doing isn't working and it's not going to work because you're swimming against the current.
