Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 13, D busted

[PsySara]

Juju,
I rarely refer to anyone as evil as I work with a lot of personality disordered people. Oftentimes defense mechanisms can cause them to lash out. But this...this takes the cake. Good saying though, not to expect different from an alligator.

Nicole,
I've often scoffed at the "pain olympics" but I do think you and I are tied for the gold, lol!

Blu,
I'm done. I am 100% sure I can't ever take him back. Even if he were struck by lightening and had a "come to Jesus" moment I could never un-remember him wishing me death. I was like the last flickering bulb just went out when he said that. I find myself repulsed by him. This week he has gone overboard with parenting. He is buying the kids all these toys, taking them out on special trips, buying all their meals and it's...so disgusting to me. His hypocrisy is so blatant and naked that I can only feel disgust and contempt for him. The snooping was almost accidental, the wife of the couple that came to visit mentioned seeing him do snapchat round the house and thought it was with me. When I told her I don't have snapchat her face fell. Later she took me aside with concerns because she saw WH expression and knew he was interacting with a female. I logged into his activities and it was confirmed. All this did was bolster my resolve to get him the heck out of my house sooner rather than later. It didn't even hurt as much as make my anger at his disrespect flare up.

Vanilla,
The mask has never fallen off so completely before but it's like I am looking at a stranger. I can't even feel attraction when he puts on his cologne. (previously I found this irresistible) Now I am grossed out because all I can picture is him schmoozing up to some floozy and catching another disease.

Tonight we sit down and tell DD7 and DS5 that we will be divorcing. I am sick with dread at how they will react. It can't be put off anymore because WH works the rest of thsi week (will come home late) and DD7 has to attend the mandatory aftercare class this Saturday. DD7 has been unusually withdrawn this weekend and I wonder if she is sensing this separation? Meanwhile I've been fielding interviews to change jobs and dealing with schedule juggling. (Nicole, I know you've asked about decreasing hours but my job is only full time, I am looking to do outpatient instead of inpatient though, likely to give me more days off)

Wish me luck friends. And please say a prayer for my perfect, beautiful and precious children. May Allah make this as painless as possible.