I had no idea what a MLC was until now...

[JaseP]

Hi dnj! Thank you so much for the good advice. Last night was great as I finally unburdened myself to my oldest/best friend who's one of the only guys I know who could be any kind of good listener and offer up sound advice. It's been so freaking awful bottling up all of this angst since December with zero support. I came home around midnight and she was in our bed even though I thought we agreed she'd sleep elsewhere as I need the good mattress since I have lower back issues...plus, this isn't my decision, why should I have to leave my own bed? Anyway, she was contrite and apologetic for her earlier outbursts, going on again about how stressed she is from work and how it can't go on like this and how she knows she has to change.

I finally confronted her about my suspicions of her 1-way emotional affair with her boss and while she vehemently denied anything sexual whatsoever she's now claiming that he crossed boundaries pursuing a "close friendship" with her and she was willing to engage this for a couple months as he's the new owner of her company she needs him to be on her side as he's notoriously cheap with resources to anyone he's not close to. Whatever, it's pretty messed up all around. The guy loves to create drama and has no life or family outside of work and his coworkers who are all men, except for her.
I'm glad she finally admitted to this inappropriate relationship that now she claims she wants to only be business/professional. It's clear to me this weirdness in her work life created this mess of feelings she's trying to untangle.

She took a shower this morning and called me over to the bathroom while naked and made sexy eyes and said "hey, I want to feel normal again" and I stupidly caved and we had sex for the first time in over a week. Sure it felt good, but I don't trust her at all regardless of her again saying "I love you, we're soulmates."
She's been making more of an effort today to actually spend time with me and the kids and suggesting we do family stuff the rest of the day...

Stay tuned for the next episode of the JaseP soap opera! Haha... sorry I have to keep it a little light sometimes or I'd really go crazy.

ps yesterday when I was lower than low and said "curl up and die" I meant just feeling beyond awful. I'd NEVER kill myself, but I can see how that could come across that way. I've got too much to live for, namely my kids! Bless you all.