Thank you M, I hope you're right that it's true confusion and not solely pitying me. But I fear the worst. I can't make any sense of it, feeling totally numb and broken, I know I need to stay busy and happy for my kids, but right now I just want to curl up and die. No appetite, sleep deprived etc...

On a slightly positive note she's finally reached out and supposedly scheduled a therapy session with a woman who she said understood her situation very well when they talked on the phone. I know this is a marathon but I'm praying she gets her head straight sooner than later. I'm not the type to wait forever. My sister was just visiting and reminded me of how crazy work obsessed my wife has been all 20+ years we've known her...


Me: 43 She: 43
Married 14 Together 20
D7 S6
Separation bomb Dec 2017
Reconciled 3 weeks later Jan 2018
Second separation bomb April 2018