Thanks Nicole. Its a weird feeling. It didn't come on suddenly, but it did sneak up on me. I had inklings of that feeling but it really came oon strong in the lastv few days.

Joseph, thanks. Its weird. Maybe it appears I'm focused on her from my posting but I've hit a point of ambivalence. Its approaching apathy. I really don't care what shes doing anymore.

I am at the point where I don't want to be married to someone that I'm worried about. And that realization has really freed me from even caring what's she's doing.

I don't even think about snooping on her phone or PC anymore. It just doesn't feel like it matters anymore.

I agree I don't think I'm ready yet. But I wouldn't care if she pushed for it either.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018